Back to the grindstone tomorrow, here's a meme.

39 questions about 2009

1. What did you do in 2009 that you’d never done before?
Got a job :D

2. Did you keep your new years’ resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Well, I did play about with others, and had to change for LANs, but mostly it was 1440*900. I need a new monitor....or two ¬_¬. I have no idea what my resolutions were for 2009, I'm sure if you look back far enough in my lj they might be there, but otherwise meh. I have new ones for 2010, they are things like be a gent and drive a lamborghini, the former of those being the more difficult.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Nope, one became pregnant though ^_^

4. Did anyone close to you die?
In terms of proximity, I have knifed lots of people on Modern Warfare 2, so they died. However, IRL, no, which I'm quite thankful for.

5. What countries did you visit?
Stayed here all year. Would like to go abroad again.

6. What would you like to have in 2010 that you lacked in 2009?
More money, that won't be difficult. Hopefully a car/place of my own/eye lasers.

7. What dates from 2009 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
21st September, started working. Brilliant.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
Getting a job ^_^

9. What was your biggest failure?
Being unemployed for the majority of the year.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
A bit of a cold.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
Gonna go with the new computer case, that made attending a LAN so much easier.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
I'm going to go with my brother, for making a rational decision about what he wants to do with his future with regards to changing to a less demanding course after illness made the demanding course much more demanding.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
Oh, this is a rant in itself. I'll just say that I hope everyone has been smart enough to see where they have gone wrong this year, I most certainly do. In fact yeah, I'm going to put myself at the top of this list.

14. Where did most of your money go?
Alcohol, Transport, Food, Computer and a few haircuts.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Rammstein's album and upcoming gig ^_^

16. What song will always remind you of 2009?
Has to be Killing in the Name by ratm

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
a) happier or sadder? Happier, job helped massively. Have I mentioned that yet?
b) thinner or fatter? Fatter, not that it's noticable, or that I care.
c) richer or poorer? Richer, because I have a job ^_^

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?
Eating. Plenty of times I've been drunker than I should because of this.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?
Complaining

20. How did you spend Christmas?
At home, played that Wii monopoly with family, ate food, drank, it was good.

21. Did you fall in love in 2009?
I'll keep this one to myself. I need to get my heart off of my sleeve.

22. How many one-night stands?
No

23. What was your favorite TV program?
30 Rock

24. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?
Nope. Don't hate anyone.

25. What was the best book you read?
I dunno, the CPL Training Training Directory? I'm not much of a book reader.

26. What was your greatest musical discovery?
Deadmau5

27. What did you want and get?
A job

28. What did you want and not get?
A nice happy stable relationship.

29. What was your favourite film of this year?
Probably Star Trek, though The Imaginarium of Dr Parnassus was pretty awesome.

30. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
22 and drinking with friends.

31.What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
This should logically be the same answer as number 28.

32. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2009?
Shirt, tshirt, jeans, belt, shoes. pretty dull. I'm nowhere near able to afford being fashionable.

33. What kept you sane?
Unshakeable faith and some damn good friends. Beer gets and honourable mention.

34. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Probably Evanna Lynch.

35. What political issue stirred you the most?
Probably the BNP getting into Europe. Bastards. There's another rant I could well put here, but can't be fscked typing.

36. Who did you miss?
*shrug*

37. Who was the best new person you met?
*clears throat*...so, not wearing my heart on my sleeve, probably Dan, as he gave me a job.

38. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2009:
Baing unemployed does nothing for your self-esteem, having a job gives purpose and at the very least, it's a distraction.

39. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
"To bear with unbearable sorrow"

Dear Santa... Dear Santa, This year I've been busy! In March I didn't flush (-1 points). Last Sunday I donated bone marrow to commisar in a life-saving procedure (300 points). In October I invaded Iraq, broke it, and couldn't glue it back together before Mom got home (-1012 points). In January I pulled nato_chrisjm's hair (-5 points). In July I pushed tayles in the mud (-17 points). Overall, I've been naughty (-735 points). For Christmas I deserve a tactical nuke! Sincerely, derengelisrafel

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I'm not bored, I'm just waiting.

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I decided not to venture out tonight mainly due to fiscal reasons. As in it's a week before payday so I'm broke, this is due to the way i get paid and have lived this past month on 2 weeks pay. So, no pub tonight and no halloween party tuesday. Ideally, I want to not be doing things for the other fiscal reason of saving money. I'm getting to be a rather expensive guy to buy drinks for, so I'll throw it on the back burner for now and then I'll get drunk on less and it'll all be good, or I'll just pack it in and get myself a car, because that would be a massive help to me.

On this magical car front, I'll conceed that it's not likely to happen this year, and if it does it'll be at the end of december. As far as what the car will be is up in the air. I want a car with some expediency, so I'm willing to settle for less than the Alpha Romeo MiTo Veloce that I would like, however I'm not really going to settle for anything as bad as my brother's X reg corsa. Other than that, I'm good for anything that I can still get parts for that isn't a ford (once i have the car, i want to keep it, not have someone wander off with it(though I might be swayed by any reasonable deal on a mondeo)(i should look into this more)(I hope these brackets are balanced(good, they are))).

I just downloaded a demo on steam for something I've never heard of, so I'm going to go give it a whirl.

Yet another one of those evenings I get to kill while waiting for a good one to appear. It's like stomping through the damn grass in pokemon trying to find something rare but the waiting is dull, then when something does appear, it's something common that you've seen hundreds of. I guess at the end of the day though, it's worth it when the rare one does appear....unless you fuck up the subsequent combat and it gets away.

I can sum up ascpects of my life in terms of game mechanics of games aimed at children. Massive ego boost there.

Continuing with things being crap and games, ever since about a week ago when I could afford to buy my next ship in eve, the price has done nothing but sky rocket because I decided to wait until it sank lower or I could get it built and pay the basic cost on one. Still, can't fly it until the 23rd of November anyway, so there's still time for the price to crash again.

As for tonight then, while I could hike over to Liverpool and watch some anime and/or drink some beer, there's also something to be said for staying in, saving money, relaxing and acknowledging that while those rare things only have a chance to appear in pokemon, the ones in terms of ways of spending an evening are inevitable.

Back to blasting rocks with lasers then ^_^

This past year hasn't been a whole bundle of fun, while the world had it's recession, i was having some depression, it's had it's moments of awesome, which I shall attribute mainly to my friends, because you guys are bloody fantastic. However it's also had it's downsides, which thinking about makes that wonderful void inside me seem ever larger. Now though, what with employment amongst other oppurtunities, I'm feeling several metric fucktons (about 60,000BU) better, there's a way to go yet, but I'll take it at the rate of a second per second.

I'd like to think that I occasionally do learn things from my mistakes, so here's a quick stab at it:

• Plan ahead. Be prepared, I've somehow managed to forget that.


• Be pro-active. If it's important, don't just assume it will happen.


• Never be unemployed unless it's temporary and you have wok lined up or your bank balance says you can afford to live for the rest of your years in the manner to which you are accustomed


• Don't allow small things to get out of hand, it's like undoing the latch and setting loose a herd of drama llamas


• Don't beat yourself up over things that are currently bad that you cannot currently change. I've done more than my fair share of this. Dwelling on things eats up the time you can spend either preparing for whatever lies ahead or distracting yourself from current issues


• Alcohol does solve some problems. Without it I may still be rather unspoken and unemployed.


• Whatever happens, just bear it, carry on and try not to make others concerned, though if you're like me, you'll downright suck at the last part. :(

It seems like things are on the up. I have a job, all that bullcrap I said in my last post may have sorted itself out, someone very bad is no longer persuing what I would only describe as a long cruel campaign of psycological torment and abhorrent ...misuse of sheer loveliness and adorability. Alright, he's not residing in everyone's favourite lake of fire just yet, but when he is, I'll nip downstairs and give him a swift kicking of my own. Bastard. Being nice to others is very cool, however, there are some people who will walk all over you because they can, not being nice to these people is cool, so is defenestrating them.

Enough of this ugly talk of undesirables, it's making me infuriated. That rather unspeakable ugly mess can be left alone right now. Now is time for relaxing and being contented. To that end I'll be off to the ship and mitre at 4:30 for those uninformed.

With that said, I'm going to finish up this mining op, look at some pictures of kittens and puppies to calm me down and then make ready for my departure.

Peace and Love! ^_^....unless you can't maintain trouser integrity >:(

P.S. The new Rammstein album kicks ass. Though Wiener Blut is a very sinister song.

Getting any message across is never easy. Especially if you're me. Deleted a fair bit of writing that's been in this text area. After I get rid of stuff that's frivolous and self absorbing, there's nothing left.

So, without descending into rambling about virtues and whatever else I was going on about before I got happy with the delete button, I'll get on with it....though this will probably turn into another cryptic set of ramblings. I'll at least try and make parts of it relevant to one person or another without giving anything away, then you can all pool your knowledge to figure out what's what, or give me another lesson in humility that I probably quite rightly deserve for coming out with this sort of crap, by dismissing it. I assume it's safe to say I have nobody curious as to my thoughts and nobody will over analyse anything I say or even analyse it in anyway. To be honest, I could probably just speak my mind on here and nobody would give a damn. However, I'm not an idiot and I have to say things without it seeming like I'm actually saying anything to protect those concerned and mainly to get it all off my chest. Anybelts...

Thanks mainly to knowing awesome people who have been awesome enough to talk with honesty, I've managed to come to terms with a few things and well, I've saved myself thinking about a great many things that now need not be thought about. It's kind of disappointing, but some choices are mutually exclusive and trying to have both leads to the detriment of both. So now I can focus more on other things (I had to rewrite this paragraph like 5 times, you've missed this expressed in a long winded depth first search analogy, unlucky).

"Other things" you say? whatever could these be? Well read back in my journal, for all I try to be cryptic, occaisionally it's just obvious. Needles to say, my want of being virtuous plays heavily on my decisions at the moment.

So, to wrap this up before I confuse myself, things are getting better, remind me when I'm being crass or anything, but in general, I'll probably just be acting out of good intent.

It's a saturday and I'm at home. I'm half upset at this and half glad. While I would like to go out and socialise with the people I like, I also probably do need to have the odd weekend relaxing at home. Except that last thing is not at all possible because there are other people in my house who have agendas different to my own, such that I will want to be watching something and someone else will want to ask me some trivial question about something that not even they will care about, yet deem it somehow illogically neccessary to ask anyway.

Anystorms, this last week has been fairly fun. I quite like the new baa bar. I wanted to get up early and watch the qualifying, but my body decided it wanted to sleep. Luckily enough, it was on the iplayer by the time I awoke. Other than that, today has been spent on EVE, watching a bit of the live feed from fanfest and watching Derren Brown fail.

As for tonight, well, someone could phone me up and invite me out for some form of entertainment, most likely a few drinks in a pub, however, since that seems unlikely, I'm probably going to be playing EVE for a while, will eat a meal with my family and all the while be thinking far too much about life, dwelling on what I cannot yet manage to acheive, what I am doing wrong, then I'll probably extrapolate a variety of scenarios of wildly varying probability of what could happen to me in the future based on current and past events, realise that life will run its course anyway and then select from these scenarios, which actions I could potentially do that would have the greatest benefit to a variety of aspects of my life and set about formulating some form of plan based on that in order to further myself. Though I believe I'll just come to several conclusions that I already have.

About half way through that last paragraph my connection dropped and I had to log back into eve, get warped back to where I was and collect my drones back up entirely disrupting my mining operation and pissing me off.

But yeah, the one thing I need right now is to focus on my priorities and see that they're achieved. Oh, and to figure out what some of my priorities may be, because I've not really done that for everything. In fact so far it's been mainly fiscal based priorities. Oh, on that note I might be a bit miserly for the month of October as I'll be living on a couple of weeks pay, a lot of which has already been consumed.

Right, time to recover this mining op and commence my musings.

OM NOM NOM NOM NOM TASTY GOLDS

That is all.

So, what with actually being employed now, I went to work in order to continue this state of affairs.

I got there and noticed that one of the chaps I work with had decided he wanted my desk and relocated himself there without reconnecting my machine or moving half of his crap out of the desk. So now I have my back to the majority of the office which is incredibly disconcerting.

Went about making a website, throwing it on the internets and then telling a bunch of search engines where it was. So then I spent the rest of the day waiting for google to list it, which will probably take the better half, if not all of, a week. While I was waiting I decided to occupy myself with reviewing stuff on search engine optimisation in order to keep it all in my head. I also found that the mars chocachino thing can use a galaxy hot chocolate pack, so i had marsy galaxy goodness in hot drink form, I'm sure it would make many weak at the knees with it's tasty taste. At the end of the day, there was an hour more of the day because i finish later now that people are paying me.

In other news, my corporation in eve decided they wanted a station, so everyone's been kicked except for the dude with the highest standings toward the peeps that own the space we're in until the corp's standings matched his and he anchored the damn thing. So now I'm just waiting on my applications to get back in to be accepted. I've got bored of giving my main orca related skills now that they're at a reasonable level and he's startring back on the path to get his black ops ship, which will be made of win.

I've become somewhat enthralled with mafia wars on facebook. I'm trying to stop it spamming everywhere with its noise though, if you see any unwanted mafia spam that's come from me, forgive me, I'm trying my best.

anything else?

oh yeah

RAMMSTEIN!!!!!OMFGLOLWINAWESOME!!!

I've got a job. Woo and yay etc. Trouble is I'm stuck on 12k pa until april when I'll have been thought about when it comes to budgeting. I mean, alright, it's a job and I'm very very thankful for it, but I'm still 8k a year from where I expected to be a year ago. Basically everything on my list from a place in liverpool down is going to get put on the backburner until april, when hopefully I'll be given a salary that actually fits the job I'll be doing. Until then, the money goes on a small car, it's insurance tax etc, eve, beer and new for this season: rent. In other terms, after everyone's favourite government official has been at it, I'll have something akin to a student loan for the year, well, until april....

Note to self; stop complaining you fucking ingrate, cheer the fuck up, get something to each, get changed and go the pub.

... yeah, Philharmonic at 6 ftw.

Apparently there's a deluxe version of the album which will have 5 extra tracks on. Which will be awesome, standard one has 11 as always.

Also, RAMMSTEIN IN MANCHESTER 02/02/10. dunno how much that'll be yet, they go on sale on the 21st Sept.

I'd best shift my ass buswards.

Right, we all know I have some damned expensive taste and weird spending habits such as not caring how much a steak costs ever, because it's a steak, I use the price as a guide for the quality I'll then expect, if it's truly dire I'd rather just not eat steak there again.

So, onto my point, which I've breifly touched upon in a convo with Phil that there are a lot of things that I would like to have that would make life easier/bearable. Let's face it, it's really in everyone's interests for me to be more content, because then you don't have to listen to me complain. Kinda wading in Chris' territory there :P

What I'm doing now is posting on livejournal. I am also playing EVE. The thing that is relevent though is I am also compiling a list of things I would like, such as Rammstein albums, flats, cars, ps3s and other gubbins and attempting to order them into some form of order that somehow has importance and time as it's main contributing factors. So although I would rather like to own a lambo, it's nowhere near the top of the list.

This way I'll be able to prioritise more essential things so I can quell anything that might resemble greed or just be something of a whim. It also won't really factor in cost or likelihood of me ever affording things and such. It's a pretty generic list.

Here's the top five:

1. Rammstein Single - Pussy (Out 18th Sep)
2. Rammstein Album - Liebe ist für Alle da (Out 16th Oct)
3. Small cheap runaround in the "no more than £2000, you pleb" price range
4. An apartment that isn't a damned studio, price dependant on earnings, likely rented
5. Eye Lasers, would prefer this being done sooner rather than later tbh

SO yeah, that's the gist of the list, it'll go on for a while and likely change from time to time as things go on. Also, I can't wait for more Rammsteiny goodness.

Today was fairly dull, looked up more seo gubbins, managing to get my head around it. Also fixed a post on the wordpress blog that was breaking it because it was filled with M$ Word crap.

Weekend was all good. Been managing to do a fair bit of mining in eve which I've not been doing much of. Kinda looking into heading down into lowsec where our other corp is pew pewing people, it's quiet, there's a fair number of rocks and I'll have protection. I'll have to wait until I have a fair amount of mining crystals otherwise it won't be very profitable. Training up for what I'll need there will only take 19 days so that's not too bad.

It's great when Chief Executives give you their assurance that they'll take you on when you're finished at TNG. I think so anyway. His dad then had a chat to me about lots of stuff, he reminded me a bit of bernard cribbins, then he departed and left me with half a bottle of red plonk, which was nice of him. Then the husband of someone else who works for the company got me a very nice 16 year old whisky, which was gorgeous.

Needless to say, my head hurts a bit.

I have been training the wrong skill in eve for 3 days before I noticed. Mining links will take a week. This displeases me.

Right, sleeps.

I think I should tractor beam myself in, take out my expensive insides and slavage the rest of me in order to build some other stuff. Anyone who gets that, you win a can of quafe.

This whole work experience thing is fun. I'm putting bits onto the company website and touching it up where it needs it. However, I'd much prefer some security as to whether or not they're going to take me on. Maybe I should just play that Aha song at them until they get the point. The work on the website though is another issue....it's kinda dull...except for panicing when i restored a backup from yesterday and had to make some links again. They're gonna overhaul the site in a bit anyway, and that sounds like fun, I'd be for coding some login scripts or something, but atm I'm just pissing about with html and css, it's beneath me. The worst one's the drive of the machine I'm working on, I can't write to it, took me a while to convince the head of IT to give me local admin so i could install stuff to it. I have a degree, added to that I'm not a damn retread, I was trying to crack creamweaver and couldn't paste the fixed exe, I'm met with the phrase "they're program files!"...that was damned infuriating to say the least. So was the phrase "how long have you got left here?" when being intoduced to someone else they'd brought on from TNG to actually do the admin work that I was meant to do and that which I had created.

I need a haircut.

The morning and me have had a falling out. I am finding it to be some form of monumental task to get up and do things...which both isn't cool and isn't me. I'll try sleeping earlier I guess.

Tomorrow yields a lot of updating the website with revised content which is more difficult than it seems as putting stuff into the content management system from word requires at least a couple of minutes sorting out the formatting which invariably decides to have parts of it bold, larger than the rest of the text with additional returns for no reason. Some of the changes want substantial changes to the site's coding, which I'd be more than happy to do excepting it's a complex site I've only had less than 20 hours experience with and...the site's being redesigned anyway so it's like flogging a dead horse while riding a new one.

Seems time's headed in that direction, so I may as well try and keep up.

So, things I'm looking forward to:

Phil's game/birthday celebrations on wednesday. This should be fun. I dunno, Phil having a good time's the real measure of that one.

Defeating IKEA.

Getting to actually do something useful and that I'm good at for the peeps I'm doing work experience for. The idea being that if I impress, there may be work there for me, which would be cool as I want to work, the people there are grand and they offer training for people to be able to run pubs, which is a damned noble cause.

Finishing the gang link skills on my main in eve so my alt can mine better. Although That will likely be mid October.

Italian Gran Prix. Mainly to see if that thing about Giancarlo is true.

Sorting out this Lamborghini Gallardo drive ^_^

Rammstein next year whenever that is. Also, I disaprove of rammstein-europe getting shut, that site was good.

Well, I feel pretty good atm, no doubt another crushing day back at boredom central tomorrow will sort that out. sheesh, even the thought of that place is pretty depressing. Oh well, it's only a day and I've done it before, so I guess I'll just do it again.

Apparently the port I got my folks was well received and apparently tastes like Christmas.

Someone addressed the issue of learning skills when your account is frozen. So I've basically just added 9 days to my queues. grrr.

I got tagged.

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Anyplanktons, I finally finished that damned spreadsheet. So then I got told to copy some images into a folder from a dozen other folders and get rid of the none high res ones, which was easy. Then I got told to write a report about the current website and what could be done to improve it...so that resulted in a 2 page criticism of lots of things and some recomendadtions I might have nicked from their competitors. Then I had to collate a bunch of certificates for mailing to people, which was interesting. I kept wanting people to fail so I could put the stickers on their results page :S

Right, on with whatever the hell it is I want to do tonight!